THERE IS NO SUBSTITUTE FOR REAL LOVE. NEVER HAVE I EVER FELT THAT PURE, UNAPOLOGETIC LOVE…..UNTIL NOW. SHE LOVES ME, MY QUIRKS, MY FLAWS…..BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY SHE LOVES MY FAMILY, SHE IS…..MY FAMILY! 

INITIALLY I WAS AFRAID OF THIS WOMAN; NOT JUST HER, BUT THE THOUGHT OF LOVING AND LOSING AGAIN. NEVER AGAIN DO I WANNA EXPERIENCE THAT SORT OF PAIN! MADNESS BREEDS MADNESS, BUT THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS GONNA LET THE ANGUISH CAUSED BY THOSE FROM MY PAST, BE THE ARCHITECT OF MY PRESENT, OR FUTURE FOR THAT MATTER! I WON’T FRONT FOR A WHILE MY VISION WAS CLOUDED WHEN IT CAME TO LOVING AGAIN, BUT THERE COMES A MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE WHERE FEAR IS NO LONGER ALLOWABLE. MY MOMENT OF CLARITY AND PURITY OF CONSCIENCE CAME WITH ONE NOT SO SIMPLE NOTION- ” I MAY ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO LIVE LIFE WITH MY DREAM WOMAN!”

THAT THOUGHT ALONE PROPELLED ME TO ACT ACCORDINGLY. (IN THE WORDS OF THE GREAT FULOSOPHER HIMSELF -“GRAB YOUR FUCKING SACK AND MAN UP!”)…TO SAY THIS WOMAN IS SPECIAL IS AN UNDERSTATEMEMT, IT’S AS IF SHE’S BEEN CHISELED FROM SOME RARE MATERIAL, AND I SEE WITH STUNNING CLARITY THAT SHE WAS MADE ESPECIALLY FOR ME, AND ME ALONE! WHAT SHE GIVES ME IS BEYOND SEXUAL SATISFACTION, SOMETHING MORE LIKE ULTIMATE FULFILLMENT, UNLIKE ANYTHING I’VE EVER EXPERIENCED IN MY THIRTY THREE YEARS. HER LOVE IS THE MOTIVATING FORCE THAT DRIVES ME FORWARD. SHE TAUGHT ME TO LOVE MYSELF AGAIN AND IN LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF I LEARNED ONLY THEN CAN I LOVE HER THE WAY SHE TRULY DESERVES! 

LOVE IS A RISK WORTH TAKING, SHE JUMPED IN FEET FIRST AND TOLD ME THAT IF WE’RE GONNA DO THIS, WE’RE GONNA DO IT TOGETHER! HAVING A LIFE PARTNER WHO EMPOWERS YOU IS A PARTNER WORTH HAVING….HADIYYA IS JUST THAT!!!

-ABDUR RA’UF QAYEM